A day of infamy: September 11, 2001 -- The race toward destruction -- A field of angels: Shanksville -- The first few days at the crash site -- The United Airlines team -- A mother's agony -- The days at seven springs -- The memorial services -- The return home -- The reckoning between mind and spirit -- First confession -- A reflection of Mary Magdalene -- A traumatic injury -- The flashbacks: a return to the scene -- A spiritual surrender -- The dark night of the soul -- The FBI meets FEMA -- A voice in the wilderness -- Superwoman has left the room -- A secret revealed -- A lily in bloom -- Weeding through -- The Southwest trail -- Life's purpose -- A tale of two muses -- A Christmas shawl -- The return of an old pattern -- EMDR therapy -- Looking for a piece of myself -- Reconciliation of my mind and soul -- A symbol of resurrections.