A nightmare laid bare -- Martha, me, and the monastics -- (Heart) breaking news -- Protestants in a Catholic motherhouse -- Smoke signals from a monastery -- The price of mercy, the cost of fear -- The closet -- Elvis, dad, Jesus, and me -- Alone in Thomas Merton's cabin -- 18,000 miles to Sydney and other day trips -- The way of intimacy -- A creek runs through it -- Martha's song -- Reporting back -- A mom and her children -- A passage -- The last page -- Alzheimer's by the numbers -- Chronology of events -- A sampling of my readings along the way.