Book I: Before. My forever family -- Going on ahead -- The unthinkable -- I hope you believe in heaven -- Pink ribbons -- Say good-bye, say nothing -- Book II: After. God?s hands -- A mother's prayer -- He told me his name -- Look toward the light -- To help you through your pain -- Alone in the world -- Face to face -- Hairy monsters and tiny teacups -- A bigger God -- Blessings from a blog -- Purple blossoms -- Streams of mercy -- Angels round about you -- The other rider -- Everything is connected -- Emilie's shady spot -- Butterflies from Emilie -- An angel to others -- A new life.