Which aisle for deathbed sheets? -- Can I have an armband, please? -- Suicide and the mental gymnastics of talking of kids -- The special art of crying on airplanes -- How to talk to grieving people -- Triggers (and the unfortunate loss of perfectly good guacamole) -- Pen in the wash -- Disney: death and murder for children -- Don't touch anything (and bring music) -- How to survive memorial services by eating all the cookies -- The emotional power of office supplies -- Busy hands and open hearts -- This is not what I ordered. -- Fight or surrender? -- Middle class cancer -- Touching two worlds -- Fire, water and the end of the world -- Pants optional -- Yoga with dad -- The last day -- Dead body in the living room -- The audacity of the sunrise -- Binge watching as a transitional object -- Don't rush -- The obituary that was never published -- Dave is going to die -- Angels in the zombie maze -- When lifelines become entangled -- The merry-go-round of horrors -- It could be me -- The autopsy in my inbox -- The chapter where I grapple with blame and responsibility -- 10,000 Answers but no reason why -- I'm sorry, I can't come with you. -- Death as light and feathers -- You'll never know him -- Metamorphosis -- Name the ghosts -- Heaven: the potluck in the sky? -- Fuck it. I'm joining the circus. -- I might be too messed up to go to work. -- Freud was right : death, sex and trauma in the body -- One year -- How to hug a shadow -- Parenting 101: you must get out of bed -- Friends whose parents are alive -- Public nudity for your soul -- Too strong for my own good -- Sneaky reemergence of belief -- We're all grieving -- I'm okay.