Prologue: My second life -- Part I: Before the Monsoon. We called her mommy -- It was only in the family -- Making my mother cry -- Channeling rage -- Zig when they zag -- Dividing the world -- Only in Africa -- One way to be born, a thousand ways to die -- Searching for the perfect woman -- The Sarajevo of the mind -- At two wars -- The lovers -- Part II: After the monsoon. The middle finger of God -- My brain, a user's guide -- I forget the name of this chapter: on memory -- This is not a joke? -- The meaning of life (is more than forty-two) -- Solitary confinement -- My last war -- Photo gallery -- Acknowledgments.