Introduction -- 1. "I Have To Be Better Than Me" -- 2. Success and Shame: One and the Same -- 3. "There was Nothing Junior About his Game" -- 4. Ferdinand the Linebacker -- 5. Dream Turned Nightmare -- 6. "I've Got to Get Better" -- 7. The Turnaround -- 8. Super Fold -- 9. Cheating...In Business and Matrimony -- 10. The Anti-Leaf -- 11. "My Head is on Fire!" -- 12. The Trade -- 13. Hello, South Beach -- 14. The Graduation -- 15. "This is Not Who I Want to Be" -- 16. High Point, Low Moment -- 17. "I Knew He was Going to Have a Hard Time with Life after Football" -- 18. "9-1-1 Emergency" -- 19. Gone but Not Forgotten -- Epilogue -- Acknowledgments -- Notes -- Index.