Introduction / by Anne Lamott -- Prologue: Dropping the Me Project -- Part one: Around the table -- Manna -- The last bite -- Lasting weight loss -- Heavenly bodies -- If I were Gloria Steinem -- The Red String Project -- In the end -- Part two: Through the mind -- Zen mind, puppy mind -- Be kind to the ghost children -- Hoodwinked by suffering -- The four-month virus -- Hummingbirds on my fingers -- Crushed starts -- What remains -- Part three: Into the sublime -- A big quiet -- The breaths I have left -- Waiting for the apocalypse -- What isn't wrong -- The blue vest -- Not minding what happens -- Snorkeling in the night sky -- Epilogue: Stop waiting to be ready -- Last words: Touchstones for breaking the trance.