Growing up as a willful boy in a tiny village in the tropical forests of Trinidad, Downing was steeped in the legacies of his scattered family, the vibrant culture of the island, and the weight of its colonial history. Following his grandmother's death, he was sent to live with his devoutly evangelical Aunt Joan in rural Canada, where they are the only Black family in a starkly devoid landscape. Isolated and longing for home, Downing began a decades-long journey to transform himself through music and performance. After a failed reunion with his birth parents, Downing sought refuge in increasingly extravagant musical personalities and became increasingly addicted to escapism, attention, and sex. Here Downing tells of his journey of overcoming, belonging, and becoming one's own self. -- Adapted from book jacket.