Foreward -- Author's note -- Prologue -- A concert with Leonard Bernstein in May 1948 -- From artist to slave laborer -- A documentary takes us back in time -- Paprika, prayers, and persecution -- Finding the cello (and the man) of my dreams -- Losing everything again -- Katherine's last recital -- Eichmann in Budapest, a tale of monsters as men -- Envoi to atrocious times -- Papa's death and notes of transcendence -- A musician afraid of sound -- Pilgrimage -- Living in isolation -- When history is revised and denied -- The fear of rising antisemitism -- Playing for my people in Germany (Landsberg, 2018).